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Recently very stress up, sick and alot of things happen.

I'm unhappy, sad and I've gone quite mad already.

I've tried to be strong everytime and everyday but I fail to do so. ;'(

Wednesday,

Went school sleeping throughout the day without fail, after school meet Yuping, Yixin and Jiali for som stuff. Wee talk cock and chitchat. Jiali and Yixin accompany me to 9head while I wentt home prepare to meet them. After everyone's ready, we went sing song. Mum called up and said brother was being handcruff home by alot of CNB. They check his room for stuff and brought him back. I'm shag, so proceed home after singing and reach home got fuck by parents.

Am I the one who kena caught? Did I interupt you or bother you? Did I keep irritates you? Why you guys always likes to fcuk me whenever there's something happen to brother? Why you guys like to question me which I really dont know a single thing yet keep forcing me to say?

I wonder where did I really 得罪 till you guys at all, so you guys likes/loves to fuck me upside down whereby I didn't anything wrong at all? When I'm still a kid, I was always being torture and abuse by you. Why I don't seems you did the things which you did on me to either elder brother or younger brother at all. You dotes them so much, I felt that I aint your daughter at all. Am I found from somewhere else so you always hit me? I'm jealous that you treat them so good but unlike me :'(

Well, sometimes I do really hate you for treating me like this but I didn't run out of the house and I didn't leave the house even though you treat me like this. I've been tolerating all this while. I do study as I know you wanted me to study so I didn't give up studying and trying you make you'll happy but unfortunately did you guys bring me any happiness? You always claim that you give me everything I needed, provide me with the things I wanted but in actual fact that's not what I wish for. I only wish that you'll could understand me, you'll could stop torturing me, you'll could stop throwing all your temper at me when I'm not at fault and lastly you'll could spend time with me.

Well, you even wanted to chase me out of the house. It was the worst alright but I still remain there tolerating you'll. :'(

Thursday,

Sleep in school all the way again. Went Jp meet up with Yuping then went over to meet up with Ahlong and he was shock when he saw me. He said my face was very pale, I look very weak and ask me stop hurting myself :'(

Went for tution, after tuition went back home and meet up with Kunlong for awhile. I don't remember what I said to him and what he said to me at all. I only know I really gone mad, I keep clench my fist really hard till now my hand still have the nails mark, bite my teeth till my jaw hurts and stop my tears from dropping. He pulled me, grab me but I struggle off, swing it hard off, shouted and cried. I was stone for awhile, my mind gone blank and walk home.

I'm really having had times recently, this's the time I gone so mad and crazy. So much things to over come, I really hope I still can tolerate it and won't fall so easily!

Brother came back home and I chatted with him. I was stun when he told me stuff.

Hannah: I believe you so much but the outcome was wrong. Why? I really don't believe you will do this, I trust you so much but no. Maybe you're being force or you don't have any choice at all. I'll understand you, I really hope to see you. I've so much to ask you, so much to scold you, so much to quarrel with you, so much to say to you and so missing you. My mum was so concerning about you too, she keep ask me go ask how're you already, where're you and what happen to you. Will you understand it, not only your family is worrying about you, my family and I are also very worried for you. I hope I can help you, I hope to get to see you soon and takecare.

Friday,

Went school and sleep again! Wtf, this week of school I didn't pay attention in class at all and I've been sleeping in class. I've been late for school almost everyday, I got no mood. I wish I'll concentrade on my studies from now on.

After school headed off to meet up with Shuhui, Phoebe and Zhihuey. Slack, played, talk and hsh! 2 days didn't meet up with them like 2 weeks didn't saw them already. I miss others too. Let's have group meet up again!

Suppose to go out now but I don't feel well so stay at home and go out tomorrow if I'm abit feel. I should stay at home and do my work. Study, pratice and not play all the time already. I hope I could get well soon, don't be crazy/mad already, don't torture myself anymore and stop giving myself so much stress.